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| Well, its been a while since I last visited this damned site and entered anything so I figga'd I'm due for a much needed update. First of all, my homeboy Lloyd is out of juvie... he's on the run though, its still a delicate situation but he's safe at the least and he's accounted for. I hate that he's not going to school right now and that he's going to be doing this until he's 17, but I cant persuade him to go home. The most I can do is get him to call his moms every now and then to let her know he's ok. I'm glad I didnt hafta go thru shit like tha when I was younger.
Alots happened as of late. I've realized that alot of the people that I was associating with, people who I thought were close friends are nothing but mess... drama... and bull shit. It hurts to, especially when one of the people is someone who I respected and cared. The basic situation is this, I'm caught in the midst of his pettiness. Two of my friends were dating. They broke up. I'm still cool with both of them. One of them is mad because the other one moved on. He's being petty, stirring up alot of he say-she say stuff, but no one (aside from me) is realizing that he's the one doing this. He's pretending to play the mediator role, but in actuality its him causing more drama. I realize this because I'm hearing both sides of the story and seeing how shit aint matching up. I managed to get some of the beef squashed yesterday, but its only a matter of time until he stirs something else up to take its place.
Anyways, I'm transferring schools... again. UT is just not for me... too many white people. I done already been on social probation and I keep having to request room changes cuz they keep puttin me wit these people who I dont click wit... (ahem... country white people) so I'm going to another HBCU in the Fall. Texas Southern University here I come. Yes, thas right I said TSU. Why TSU? Well its close enough to home that I can still come visit. But its far enough where I'm on my own and dont hafta deal with them on a day to day basis or even a weekly basis. Hopefully I can get a campus apartment with my homeboy Tavarus.
Speaking of, he's become one of my best friends as of late. We're both helping each other thru the drama... he's one of the sides who keeps getting fed false info, but he needs some work done. He has low-low self esteem and that bothers me. He bases his value on whatever person he's with and constantly has to have someone or be in a relationship. Thats unhealthy... I know cuz I was there at one point in time. But thas another topic in itself.
Anyways, Tweet's new cd is the t. I love it. I'm listening to it now. I recommend that everyone go get it ASAP. I'm out though. Holla. | | |
| I'm blessed. Very blessed. I have a family that loves and accepts me for me, with all of my problems, with my bad ass attitude, my lifestyle and every other thing they dont necessarily care for. Alot of people are not as blessed as myself, some of my friends (or my extended family as these people are to me) are not as lucky. One of those is my best friend and play brother. Its sad as hell, the other day he was arrested, his family sent him to jail claiming him as a runaway when it was really them putting him out. Why were they putting out they're 16 year old son you ask? Well the reason is simple. He is gay.
I'm sick to death right now. I dont know where he is. What they are going to do with him. He has yet to call anybody and we can't exactly find him in the system, though we have someone searching. I could seriously go over there and tap the hell out of his momma and his step-daddy, especially the step-daddy. He has an asswhooping coming. It prolly wont help the situation, but I'd feel a hella lot betta. This shit is sad though. When did being gay mean that you should be loved or treated worse by your parents, people who should love you unconditionally. They might not care for how he gets down, but should they not love and respect him anyways. No matter who he chooses to fuck, is that not still their son? The sad thing about it is, they dont want to care for him, but they wouldnt let him leave when someone else offered to take him in.
Again, I'm so blessed. There are not many people in my family who know about me, the few who do... still love me. They might not care for how I get down. They might not want to hear of my sex life, BUT at least they can separate the two. I'm about to go lay down now, I'm too downcast right now to function right.
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Hmm, for a first entry this is going to be uneventful. Today's going by sooooo very slowly, I'm bout ready to bounce. Its hard not having a car, I miss my little ole Kia Sephia but she's gone on to that big car pound in the sky. *pours out a little brake fluid* R.I.P Kia-X.
Soon as my clothes get out the dryer I'm outta here though. I'm spending this weekend at one of my homeboys house, I haven't caught the bus in a long time but I'm so desperate to get out of here that I'm wiling to DART all the way from Dallas to Irving. About an hour or so long bus ride... Yeah, its that bad at home.
My aunt is here from Atlanta and she's one of those busy-bodies who loves to get in err one and anyone's business. Yeah, she's an ass and if I stay here too much longer I'ma let her know that... great auntie or not. I just dislike when someone is too much in my business. I had to get on her today about entering my room without waiting on me to tell her to enter. You just do not enter a grown man's room without his permission if the door is shut. I could be in here doing all kinda things, from changing clothes to jackin off. Now if she'd have opened the door and caught an eyefull she'd have egg on her face... seriously.
Then, she's gone completely religiouso on us. Nothing is Christlike in the house, from me hanging with my friends to the way my grannie organizes her pantry. I'm not going to comment on exactly how Christ-like her judgement is... I know there's a scripture somewhere that says "judge not... least ye be judged." (In other words... MIND YA BUSINESS LADY!!!) So yeah, I'm escaping before I end up with my foot in my mouth and her ass. Sorry Grannie, you're waaaaay more equipped to deal with your sister then I am.
Anyways, I'm goin to my homeboys. Real coo person, we just met recently. Maybe we might end up being somethin more cuz I need me a significant other now dammit. lol. When I first met him, I was wit someone else. Thas not a factor anymore so we'll see what's gonna happen wit that.
Thas bout it for the day though, I'll update when I get back on Monday.
Holla,
Slim | | |
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